Guest Post: When Shame Swallows you Whole
by Dawn Serra
Here are snippets from Dawn’s blog article on shame. I highly recommend you read the entire article on her website.
Want to know something bizarre about me?
Vulnerability is a space that I’ve come to crave.
I know this makes me an outlier.
Most people cringe at the thought of being vulnerable, at opening themselves up to hurt, ridicule, failure, and pain.
It’s not that I’m emotionally masochistic (maybe I am a little bit), but that every single great thing that’s ever happened to me occurred after I allowed myself to be vulnerable and then found the courage to do the thing anyway.
Being vulnerable has allowed me to experience the most profound depths of intimacy, love, connection, gratitude, and transformation.
Studying Brené Brown’s work on vulnerability and wholehearted living, along with other amazing thought leaders like Tara Brach and Seth Godin, has not only inspired and influenced the work I do with my clients, but it also afforded me a sense of security against experiencing my own shame.
After all, if I understood shame, if I knew how it looked and how it felt, if I studied the way it impacts us and how to overcome it, then shame would be easier to avoid, to identify, and to elude, right?
The truth is shame will find you, no matter how much you know.
Shame will grab you and do everything it can to crush you.
Shame will find a way to hold you under the water and no one will ever know you’re drowning because the amazing thing about shame is it tricks you into silencing yourself when you most need to scream for help.
Each of us have different shame triggers, and many of us have one or two primary triggers that we carry for most of our lives.
One of my shame triggers is a nasty little voice that likes to whisper how unloveable I am.
Most of the time, that voice is a distant, nagging irritant that I can acknowledge without feeding it. We have found a way to live fairly harmoniously.
It’s an on-going process for me to remind myself I am worthy, I am enough, I am lovable, and it has gotten easier with practice to hold this knowledge inside of me as a truth.
I started to see cracks in my lovability as I fell more deeply in love with my partner. I began to internalize a dialog that told me I wasn’t living up to his expectations.
Shame can drive us to do horrible things. Shame can traumatize us, harm us, and lead to depression, anxiety, and even violence.
Then, I had the fortune of having a perfect storm of circumstances force my shame out into the light.
Read the entire article on Dawn’s website.
Listen to Dawn on the Cut the Crap and Keep it Real Podcast
Erotic coach. Confidence enabler. Sex educator. Shame slayer. If there’s one thing Dawn Serra is passionate about, it’s helping people find their courage to explore the scary spaces within themselves. Dawn is on a mission to support individuals and couples as they cultivate radical transformations within themselves: to try new things, think new thoughts, and break the silence around their deepest desires and needs. She is healing the world by giving people a new framework in order to live vulnerably, authentically, passionately, and with ecstasy. In addition to coaching, Dawn Serra is also the co-host of a weekly sex podcast called Sex Gets Real.